1/26/11

o.k. Here's what's going on. I've committed the next two months to bringing Braco here to Indy. I feel this will be an ultimate good deed for many, many people.

So I might not have time to write individual g.d's .

Today, I shared Braco with John Domont. He's into helping people with their health and to taking good care of himself. He has a huge network of people. At first he was mean. He asked me if I wanted money. I said. No. Wanted to use his studio. No. Then I asked if he would just get on line and and get an idea of what Braco is all about and what he could mean to the hopeless people of Indy and the environs. He said he would and he got on line before we hung up.

He's mean but if he gets it, he could be of great help. I believe that he truly wants to help others. So, we'll see.

1/19/11 Chores

GD to myself. Washed my hair. Did all my (allowable) exercises. And had a good hot breakfast.

Then off to the bank. Finally, I got my toes done. My feet are always bare, and my toe nails grow sooo fast. Finally, if I let them go long enough, my sharp little toe nails start shredding my pants. No. So today, I went to nail city where I picked a happy, fun and sparkling red polish. In the winter red makes me so happy. And also Luke. He saw the color and . . . . he loved the color. So it's a GD to him as well.

I love this nail salon. You can relax and read. No one forces you to talk. You don't have to feel guilty about being decadent.

Afterwards, I shopped at Whole foods. Easier than ever. I didn't have to worry about counting steps. Better all the time.

I got gas. OMG. There was a line at the gas station. What? There's never a line at this place.

I guess the threat of a storm is scaring people. Well, me too. I don't like to let my car be on empty when it gets really cold. Is that a GD to my car. Well, yes. You have to treat your property well too. Everything is part of God. So you have to respect it.

At home I got a good surprise. (I hope). Luke and I are meeting with the composer for my work , "At His Holy Feet, " on Saturday.

1/17/11 Meditation Class, Dr K, L's necklace

I can't even express how I feel about today's meditation class. It just flowed from my center. It's hard to be completely honest and to open your heart, but I did it. I shared my heart and the heart's of all my great teachers. My willingness to share this process and bless others with it is my GD.

Then we ate lunch and went to our chiropractor appointment. Dr K is with me all the way--as I make changes. He wants to make sure that I don't hurt myself in adjusting to my new flexibility. He told me to hit a balance between using the cane and walking without it. He gave me an exercise which I plan to do tonight. He did a GD for me. He supported me. I'm very grateful.

Then, I told Luke that we should pick up a new necklace for his golden sun. I encouraged him to take care of himself. He really doesn't like the chain that goes with his golden sun and he can't put it on and take it off by himself. We went to Patoras. Tony was there. He's sweet and best of all he knows jewelry. He knows how to give you what you want. G.D. He listened to us and he helped us find the perfect necklace. Luke was happy.

Then, I saw Michael's Art Store. I knew that I needed a brown and black color for my painting. In the past, I would have brushed my own needs aside, thinking that Luke should get home and get his work done before we watch Jeopardy and Chuck. But no. I asked and Luke was happy to help. We picked the paints together. He has a good eye. And got some other items that we wanted. Including two cute lolly pops for the kids. G.D.'s all around.

1/16/11 NM, Dinner w Emme and Bobby

I helped a number of customers at NM. Matt and I know how to lift the energy of the store. This helps people and it helps with the bottom line.

1/15/11 movie night

I'm not sure. Did I do a GD today. Well, Luke and I wanted to get rid of the items we'd collected for charity. Why should they sit about cluttering our dining room, when someone else could really use them.

Luke got a call from the kid who was auditioning. He would be an hour or more late --due to winter weather. Luke thought we would have time to bring our give aways to the store that gives free things to people who need them. I got my act together and got ready fast. Then we worked together to get the goods in order. Luke brought it into the car and we were off. It's nice to know that people will be excited to find some of our high end items.

When we got home, Luke went to audition his student. I took a call from his mom, Nana. Nana is old and lonely. Mostly house bound. She makes it hard on herself because she ends most visits telling people that they're fat and need to lose weight. Afterwards they don't want to come back. She also talks about how miserable her life is--and you know, it is. No one wants to hear it. But I don't mind. Words are only words. Who cares.

Lately we've been talking about Braco. I tell her about the miracles that have come about in relation to Braco's energy. And basically anything I can think of that would uplift and amaze her. She loves it.

So yes, it's a g.d.

I'm painting. A g.d. for Babs which will auction it off in a few weeks. Paint, Ashley, Paint.

Movie Night! Luke and MKate wanted to see "The King's Speech, " and I wanted to see

Tangled. I gave in. Two against one. WOW. Another g.d. And I wasn't even sure that I'd done any.

1/14/11 Appoint with B Cat, NM

Today I pushed myself. A lot. It didn't work for me. It was a bad deed to myself. I wish that I had been completely healed. In just a second that all the health issues that I've had over the years vanished. I wanted to throw away my cane. That didn't quite happen. So . . . hum.

I know that my immune system has come back. It started when Luke and I were watching Braco's videos and on line clips. That's how I was able to get up at 2:45 with about an hour's sleep and get to hawaii. I did get sick . . . . but after a day of Braco making the gazings I woke up early and in great health and spirits and the rest of our stay was pure magic. Come on Ashley. Last year Dr L was worried and didn't know what to do to help you. Now you're feeling alive again. So stop being a baby. And stop wanting what you didn't get . . . yet.

My good deed for myself and my family is to take what I was given with love and respect and joy and move into my future thankfully.

And yes. I'm 50 % healed of my injuries. The left side of my body is pain free for the first time in 10 years. But 50 % is not 100 %. I want to whole thing. So today, I'm not grateful for my 50%. I know I should be and hopefully I will be tomorrow.

1/13/11 B Town and the kids. Yay

Luke and I are working better and better together (not perfect --yet) , but so much better.

Luke helped me get ready. His GD. It took him a beat to get his head around it, but in the end he helped. I asked and he was willing.

I gave Greyling a bit (smidge) of chicken with her meal. She was in cat heaven. She licked her platter clean. I felt like I'd done a GD.

God did a GD for us. l.m. (little miracle). The weather had been snowy and slick. Today, our B town day, the roads were perfect. Tomorrow it will snow again. I am so grateful. Luke is grateful as well.

We picked up Xavier at school. He was delighted to see Papa and me. At home, we gave him his "magic" crystal and he loved knowing (without really knowing) that someone special thought he was going to be a master. Then Luke took a nap and X and I played Bay Blade. I got 5 wins and he got 13. Rain usually gets 1 or 0--so I'm excited. Then X and I played a card game. He won the first game and I won the 2nd. I wouldn't let myself win every game, but I didn't mind giving him a challenge. When I play with X, I think it's a GD both ways. I love to play with him and he loves playing with me.

At 5:00 we left for X's school. It was a special evening when the teachers introduce parents and grandparents to the children's school day. They love and honor these kids and care so much about them. They do GD's every day and all comes through from their true love of kids. X loved showing us his work.

When she saw me, Violet ran over and hugged me. She loves her gramma. And that's a very sweet feeling.

THen, we went to dinner. I had to keep reminding Rain and Ry that Luke wanted Gluten free pasta --which we can only get at Brachettas. That was my care for him. He loved every bite.

We're going to have some time challenges in the next few weeks--as Luke gets back into his schedule at Butler and with the 2 orchestras that he's concert master for. This time we talked quietly and we made compromises that worked for both of us and for our family. Wow. It's the first time that we've worked so beautifully together. We came up with a perfect plan. Braco's GD to us. He blessed our lives.

1/12/11 Hair--that takes all afternoon

This morning, I had a deep, sweet meditation. I'm starting to own the changes that are taking place.

I got most of my morning practices done and that was good. It's a GD to myself. If I don't take care of myself --- I can't help others.

I came to my hair appointment on time. Early because I was concerned that weather conditions would slow me down and they did--but just a bit. The salon feels sad because the new owner is moving the business into a new, larger place that she may or may not be able to sustain. Scary for everyone.

I got to see Florence, one of my fav's, she's 92 and so brave and spunky. Gary does her hair. When I came on tue, I saw her once a month. Now, I come on Wednesdays. She had to cancel yesterday because of the weather. So there was a GD that I love to do. Make Florence feel special. I always make much of her and I know that she feels appreciated. We talk about mystery books; we both like the same kind--not very violent but kind of sweet and uplifting.

Even he's sad and he shared that he's still mad at Jeffry for leaving everyone. It wasn't as fun as usual, but part of life is being there for people you like. So, I just tried to be quiet and peaceful and say a prayer that the new space would take off and bring good things to all the hair dressers.

Eunice is so sweet. She's like MKate (her sister). She just wants to help people and make them happy.

Becky, daughter, called me. She had some sad news. One of her past students, a young man that she was so proud of and liked so much, died. He left behind a wife and year old baby. Becky and her husband live carefully. They don't make much money. She gave $200. to another student who wouldn't have otherwise been able to make the funeral. She called to ask if she had done the right thing. I was so proud of her and her dad was too. I told her that her gramma in heaven would be smiling down with pride. A good heart and being generous is one of the crowns of life. Becky loves to do GD's.

When I got home, Luke and I went into the dreaded basement. I couldn't do it myself. It's too overwhelming. We put in 45 minutes. The look of the basement is beginning to change. We don't usually go down there, but somehow it matters. Another GD that we do for ourselves.

Then MKate called. She's always thinking of others and asked if I needed anything from Costco. I did. Luke was wanting some pistachio nuts. Since his diet is so limited, I like him to have what he likes and can eat. MKate said she'd buy it and bring it by before going back to work.

She stayed for a cup of tea. We talked about some of the GD's that's she's been able to accomplish this year. Tears came to her eyes to think how much she's been able to help and to bring joy to those who might not have joy. How lucky am I to be surrounded by kind , loving people. People who want to do DG's and uplift the world. Very Lucky.

1/11/11 Dr K, Hatha Class

Snow and slushy weather. Luke drives through the perilous morning weather. All so we can see Dr K (chiropractor) and see what he thinks about the imprint of our experience on our bodies.

I was nervous.

He was truly interested. We talked. I told him what I really think--that Braco is an angel of God and that he brings the most divine energy into the room. After he examined me, Dr K smiled. He worked with for so long and saw me living with so much pain and limitation. Now, he's seeing me go free. Awesome.

By the time we headed for home, the roads were already better.

Yoga class. Awesome. What can I say. The energy was . . . . well amazing. After class, when the others had gone, Michelle, Natalie and I talked about Braco. We talked until almost 10 pm. Thank you God. Thank you for GD's to me.

1/10/11 Meditation Class and other chores

When I woke up this a.m. I didn't know how I would teach anything--especially my precious meditation class. But I took a breath and got up. I'm carrying Braco's golden sun within and I'll be able to help people even more. The class affects the whole school and maybe all of Indianapolis. The class was awesome. I stepped back and let the energy take the lead. So peaceful and blessed.

Then Luke and I took our power ride. We're different people. Really different people. We're not ready to talk about issues and not only that our issues seem to be disappearing.

We shared our experiences with a sick friend. He was unreceptive. And I think he may want to hold on to that illness of his. So sad. However, you know, seeing me so well and seeing me walk--had it's effect. Just talking about it in detail put us in a deep state. On the way home, I started falling asleep. Luke was driving and I just closed my eyes and let the sun take me away.

MKate did a kindness to us. She gave us dinner tonight from the yummy party food that she made. I was so grateful. It was delicious.

Now - - - - the good deed from Braco to us. Luke was taking the groceries out of the trunk of the car. A whole bottle of apple juice dropped. Glass and sticky juice were all over the garage floor. Luke was stressed. I TOOK OVER. I HELPED SWEEP UP THE GLASS AND I MOPPED THE GARAGE (GETTING UP MOST OF THE JUICE.) I'm moving back into an independent life. Thank you Braco. Thank you. Luke and I were just smiling and smiling.

1/9/11 NM Party

This a.m. we woke up extremely late. We're still kind of meditating the night away. We wake up feeling peaceful and good, but late. I guess it has nothing to do with GD's. Although it's the ultimate GD from Braco to us.

I am working on cleaning my space. This is a GD for me and for Luke. I'm inspired to use the piece of furniture that we bought so long ago to organize stuff--to organize stuff. Stuff needs to have a place and now it does. I have more work to do, but today I got a great start.

I'm still not fully back. Although I'm getting more and more settled into . . . . ???? I don't know? Where am I? I asked the Divine to keep me with Braco and with the beautiful energy that he shares with all of us. So I can't complain.

I didn't know how it would be for me to attend a party. If it had been anyone else's party, I would have called in and said that I couldn't go. BUT this was MKate and Jeff's party. MKate is my bestie and Jeff is the kindest. So I just got it together and went .

And I was glad. It was a GD that was a lot of fun for Luke and I. The party was so fun. The food was amazing. I loved the fish and the crisp flavorful veggies. BUT my fav was MKate's famous pasta and cheese bake. Soooooo yummy.

Linda was there. I gave her a cat calendar for Christmas. She told me that she wanted a new cat calendar but they were too expensive. Before she came to my house, she went to 1/2 price bookstore and thought --no, better not. Then, she came to my house to feed the girls and . . . . there was her present. She loved it. It's awesome when someone loves their Christmas present.

Also, someone did a GD for me. I collect the work of an artist who is changing his style. He did some apples that I was interested in, but I didn't know if he had any left. He told me that I could have two. I was so happy.

One of the reasons that MKate is my bestie is that she is such a caring person. Three people had special dietary constrictions. She honored each one and made sure that all three had a dessert that they could enjoy. Lucky me, I got to eat MKate's Italian cream cake. Yum.

We went home when Luke got too allergic. He's allergic to MKate's old cat. But we got to stay a long time. Also we were very, very tired. I'm not sure when the tired feeling will go. Luckily Luke still has a week before school starts.

I tried to explain to one of my friends that being around Braco is like . . . . when Emme was born, mom babysat so we could go to dinner. We went to a high end Chinese restaurant. They had these very sweet rum, coconut and fruit juice drinks. They tasted so sweet and good. We drank them down and all of a sudden --oops we were higher than a kite. They looked so innocent. That's the way it is around Braco. His music starts and then he walks out. Just quietly. He climbs to a platform so everyone can see him and . . . then he stands there for from 5 to 8 minutes. Then he leaves. But the effect is like you ate the energy of the universe.

1/8/11 Shopping, Football at Emme and Bobby's

Today, finally I got in my exercise which was a GD for my body. Things are changing. I don't know what to say beyond that. What I'm trying to do is to stay centered and as quiet as possible. Thank God that I didn't have to work this week.

Luke and I went shopping at Whole Foods. Then went through a number of needed chores--including getting a new battery for the phone. Luke is giving a lot of time to family life and that's his GD to me and I appreciate it.

Nicole came over. She called just as we walked in the door from shopping. She brought a thoughtful gift--something that will benefit me and Luke. A great gluten free dessert cook book with a few bread recipes a well. Then I took time to share every detail of my Braco experience with her--to bless her. I was tired and still had to cook, so this was a GD tha was no doubt my pleasure.

I did family dinner Ashley style. Boston Chicken. Broccoli. Sweet potatoes and no dessert--we're mostly on diets. Usually Bobby cooks. My GD. I cooked and he was so happy to relax.

Then I shared Braco with Emme. She listened and took it all in. It's usually not her gig, but "The Energy" came through. I almost cried. We were both so exhausted afterwards that I had to go home early and Emme almost fell over.

1/7/11 It's Friday.

I woke up this morning in a deep state of meditation. Outside the snow was falling softly. I felt that nature was echoing my quiet state. Braco gave me a gift and I am loving and appreciating it.

In some ways, appreciation is the best good deed. It takes a still photo of God's amazing gifts. We can up it up on the wall of our hearts.

Then Luke and I did more house cleaning and organizing. It was like a dream come true. People can paint your walls and built shelves but they can't put your house together the way you love it. In the past, I told Luke that we needed to do this together. He didn't make the time. Now for the first time in a long time, we worked on our house together. We're seeing beautiful things happening. Thank you, Braco for this gift as well.

Another gift from Braco, for the past 10 years, I've done things from a seated position. Today I stood up to organize and clean. What a gift. I didn't get tired until evening.

Emme called me to share an amazing blessing in her life. She told me that it was the best present she could imagine getting. She worked for this and she deserved it. I felt so grateful.

Then MKate called to find out if she could pick up a few things for us from Costco. She's such a giving person. I've been missing celery and here it walked in the door along with asparagus and clementines.

Then, more blessings. We have had two giant tubs of stuff in our dining room. They were formerly in our basement. Rain and Ry brought them up ages ago so we could donate the contents. I kept thinking that I'd have to go through things and then bring them to a donation center. Luke and I added more things to donate. We had a ton of stuff in our dining room. MKate has been helping a very poor pastor and family. They don't have enough to feed and clothe their kids and their congregation is also poor. When MKate saw Rain and Ry's wonderful tubs of good stuff, she was willing to haul it to her car and pass it on. We didn't have to haul it ourselves. The dining room is almost free of stuff. Good deeds everywhere. Blessings raining down.

1/6/11 First day home . . .

I felt that I needed to meditate today and to remain silent or semi silent. So I stayed home. In the a.m. I slipped into meditation during my practices. I went with the flow.

GD I did pick up the phone for my daughter. She wanted to share about her kitten, Mimi , who has health issues. We'll see. Hopefully, she'll recover soon. It's expensive to have a sick pet.

Another GD. I wanted to chill today. Luke wanted to clean house. We both compromised. We did clean. I wanted to clean an upstairs closet. It's like a domino effect. One closet opens up and another room has the storage space it needs. Luke wanted to clean the kitchen and he's right . BUT we'll get to the kitchen. This was the day for that messy closet. Messy wasted closet. And the pretty room was a mess as well. Now great and I want to get the wall painted. Pull the room together design wise.

CREATING A NEW STORY

Luke and I spent a week with Braco and the amazing people that are drawn to him.

It's going to take time for me to sort out the profound events and changes that took place during our seven days in Kona, Hawaii--the time we spent with Braco and our experiences when he made the gazing. Little by little I'll record what I remember most strongly.

But . . . . I made a decision. I have some goals. One is to get completely healthy. But there are others. These goals all require miracles. This is a new day and I'm going to assist my brain my making new connections of light.

The little plane from Hawaii to Pheonix was : small, crowded and hard to rest in. Hard for me to get up and down with a side rail that wouldn't move. I had to lean on the chair in front of me to rise if I or someone else in our row wanted to use the rest room. Finally Luke and Maria (in our row) got up and I stood in the aisle trying to bring life back to my feet. I was holding on to the chair in front of me. Suddenly, with no warning, this little woman--who was traveling alone and crabby--started yelling at me. She accused me of shaking her chair and disturbing her. I tried to tell her that it was hard for me to get out of my little seat and that her chair was my only support. She wasn't having it and kept on being loud and ugly.

The old story was: a lot of bad feelings, words and meanness to this woman. The new story was different. I thought--wait a minute. Instead of wishing her . . . . hum . . . . . I would try to understand her position. She was trying to get a little rest and I kept pushing on her chair and disturbing her. So I understood and was able to let it go.

The plane landed more softly than I have ever experienced a plane landing. It was a miraculous. I didn't know it was possible to do a feather land in a heavy plane. Anyway I never experienced it before.

I got up and tried to open the overhead luggage thing and couldn't. The very mad lady reached up without looking and did it for me. I said thanks and wished her well along her way. New pathways of light among my trillions of brain cells.

1/6/11 Home From Hawaii

We're home from Hawaii and I'm still flying high. We were with Braco and we brought all those we love. I'm excited to see how the blessings flow in their lives. Not to mention in Luke and my lives.

MKate did a good deed to us. She brought us a salad to eat fresh with our Boston Market dinner.

And we did appreciate her for it. Also she feed our little Pumpkin who loves her. We fed Grayling who mostly loves me. Grayling did a good deed to me by welcoming me home the second that I opened the door.