7/12/10 Going beyond my temper

Yes, I can get mad. Well, I'm not proud of it, but there it is. When I'm mad, the inner yogi goes --what a waste of good energy. Sigh.

Luke and I were having a fight. He said things that made me so mad. What I wanted to do was . . to say something mean and awful to him. Later I told him that there's a lion cub inside me that wants to bite when she gets mad.

Here is the inner conversation that I had with myself: I told Luke that I'm mad about what he said. Then I left it up to God. I don't really want to crush Luke with words. What for? What could it accomplish? I'd like to come to a conclusion that we'd both be happy with--both learn from. Could happen. Why not.

I count that as a good deed. I resisted the knee jerk, and didn't poison our relationship with words.

Here's what I thought about on 7/10/10

"The days of our lives are filled with the opportunity to do deeds and think thoughts that bring

more peace and hopefulness to others. And with these acts of light--though silent and

unobserved--comes joy. This joy fills the world. We need more and more people who do good deeds and think light thoughts and then the world will be pulled out of darkness and brought into the Kingdom of light.

Also:

"Suppose someone gave me a bag of magic seeds that I could plant anytime -- some seeds were made of light and would grow into beautiful trees , plants and flowers--delicious fruits and veggies; seeds that would bring joy into the world. In this bag were dark seeds as well-- plants that would create harm. Which seeds should I plant? What if I'm annoyed or angry. What if I'm right to be angry? "

Enough said.