I know that I can take my husband for granted, expect him to read my mind, come up to my standards . . . you know . . . the things that steal joy--that cover light with darkness.
Today Luke and I were driving to the Chiro. Sometimes we fight. A topic came up that could have brought us down. I turned away and peace came.
OK. Every year we go to a music festival in California. I don't like to spend two and 1/2 weeks of my summer at Bear Valley, but it's a joyful musical experience for Luke. He loves it and has an opportunity to make music with old friends and some great artists. So, I go and support him.
I do my best to have fun. There's a person on the board that I don't care for. We got into it last summer. If I mentioned this to Luke, he'd feel bad. Why should I bring him down.
My Chiro has a quiet wisdom. I respect him. So I told him the problem. He said, " When a person acts ugly, it's usually pain from their own past. Give it to God and move on to higher and better thoughts. " So I did.
I chose not to bring Luke down and that was the GD. The result was more spiritual freedom for me and a light that almost made me laugh.
The second GD: My mother-in-law, know as Nana, lives in a dark place . She feels bad, her friends are dead, and her mind is dimming. She's depressed. I thought some vitamins might help. I would also like to provide a Nana sitter, someone to keep her company --so she wouldn't be alone so much. But Nana being Nana, is not easy to help. She wants to be extra pathetic. Maybe she's just afraid of change. I don't know. I've wanted to move forward and get some help for her--for some time. It's been a stop and waster of my mental energy. My block.
So . . . instead of worrying--would Nana take vitamins from me or not? I should do something but I don't. Today . . . I called Nature's Market and I ordered vitamins to be sent to Nana. If she takes them, she does, and she'll feel better. If she doesn't . . . it's up to God. I did my GD, now it's up to Him.
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